Envious

Back home in the evening..

Went to my friend's daughter bdae just nw..her daughter is so chubby just like my ger is young that time..

I was so envious nt cos of the daughter party but cos wen i went there i saw alot of pretty mothers. Some of them having pregnancy and some have i think 2 kids alreadi..I felt so out of space cos i dun noe them and I dont talk to them also..They are realli pretty you noe..

I always believe that u r beautiful by nature..each gt their own beauti..i feel envious wen i saw them you noe..I know that the life i am having nw is nt bad alreadi cos some of my friends is nt that gd than me..

They always though I have a gd husband bt i always dun think so..mayb cos he is always addict to the com playin maple and dota and slp late and always dont want wake up early for breakfast all..but overall i realli think he is gd in a way that he noes that if he neglect me, he will bring me out wen he off from work. I always feel that a couple must always forgive and forget and must always be there for each other and nt wen things happen and u must come to a stage wen u must divorce then u try ur ways to make admentsment..theres no use cos even u patch up there is surely a lost of some feeling between the two of you.

Back from chalet

Hi..i am back from 2 dae 1 nite chalet book by my friend..was quite enjoyable...

The 2 kids was fun...which is my ger and Armory...wen at nite is time to slp and my ger wen to slp alreadi but Armory was still playing and the Dad say wana scratch her head for her she fall aslp immediately..

Her husband wen to work in the morning and after that me and my ger wake up cos i couldnt slp the whole nite...we chat and talk through alot of things...

Understand abit of her though i noe her for so long...chat last nite also...i ask her is her bb plan but she told me dun ask the question...i think cos they didnt plan..nw she is unable to work and the husband is going to pay for everything..i wonder if they is able to make it or nt...

Yesterdae we were chatting and was like discussing abt wen the kid is born how its gona be...i believe each got its own bt sometimes something cant be realli go ur way...

She dun think about the future and was like telling me all the thing she seen and belive...If you have a 2nd child and your 1st child is still young, u will pay more attention to the older 1 or the younger 1..To me i will pay the same attention cos if you pay more to the older 1 and the younger 1 will be like...and if the younger 1 the older 1 will get jealous and etc...if i were to have a 2nd 1 , i will pay the same attention and let them have almost the same thing in the case they fight and dun build the bond..

She told me that if u pay more to older 1 u can build back the bond with her and let her feel secure but this doesnt make sure that the younger 1 will feel secure..she is newborn but she still has feeling and newborn bb needs a lot of attention and security...

She dun think to the future yet and she say will think about it wen it happens so let it be ba

2nd post

Hey I am back for my 2nd post..

Todae i msg her in the morning asking her if she is pregnant and she admit it..it means that i didnt guess wrongly..I guess that she has this BB is during the time wen she run out from her house wen her Husband tried to get her pregnant in order not to let her leave him.

I ask her if she gt back with her husband cos of the bb or nt she say no cos no point but to me i always feel that she always doesnt reflect to wat she say..and is like i was wondering like she doesnt seem too happy to have this baby..

I hope that she will have a happi mind and happi dae aheads her and hope that since she willing to forgive her husband i hope her husband have realli change and treat her better.

I am always there to help her and hope she is willing for me to do that..

my 1st posting

Suddenly had a craving to create a new blog...wat has happen to me all this while...

Actually i think nthing much happen..celebrate my Ger 3rd years old birthdae abt 2 months ago and about another 3 more weeks she will be going to school to start her nursery alreadi...

And me of course is to find new job and start working and earn more money so that me and my hubby can go get a house and build my dream land with him and my Ger...

Been going out with my friends for months and after so mani things have happen i dun noe wat she is thinking..i dun mean to critize her bt its true...mayb becos she is those soft-hearted type ba..her husband has betrayed her once and done so mani things to hurt her bt she still forgive him. I received her msg in the morning saying that they have patch things up and going to start all over again and i was like so blur in a sudden

I mean its nt that she cant patch back with him bt is like out of a blue things and things that happen at her work i just find it weird..I always think that she is pregnant bt i dun noe whether shld i go and ask her cos if i ask it will be awkward for us in future if we met up ba..i think

I noe its every woman dream to have a good career and have a wonderful family bt sometimes somethings nt everything can be forgiven..bt since she has decided all i can say that may she be happy and blessful

Sometimes i also dun noe wat is happiness and love...i have read her blog bt i realli dun noe how she feel...

okie..gtg ...hope i will post for a 2nd blog...